A Place to Call Home…
31 Days of Brannan – Day 8
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Today’s Playlist – Home
This song never fails to tear me up. Whether Jay’s intent was to bring up the visual of runaway or displaced youth, trying like hell to eke out an existence in this sometimes harsh world or not, but that is what came up for me when I first heard it.
It’s something that’s been on my mind as of late. Being an older guy, I’ve been wanting to give back to the younger generations. Displaced youth, especially my glbt brothers and sisters who’ve lost their only home because their families couldn’t see beyond their own short-sighted prejudice against their own flesh, blood and bone and what they had hoped would be unconditional love and support only to be completely abandoned. Their worth plummets and they have to quickly grow up and figure out how to make their own way in the world.
Youth often doesn’t think big picture, or envision the long term effects of recent and often rash decisions. Extrapolation isn’t often in their vernacular – let alone an element of their reasoning/logic.
Fatal habits, broken dreams
Waking up isn’t all it seems
We held on to what we couldn’t see
I carried you, you carried meCamped out in Hollywood roasting letters from your father
We proved survival of the why bother[CHORUS:]
We were young and excited
We were lost and alone
We were free, but misguided
And we had no place to call home
These opening lines took me there. The what if moment of my own life. Now, mind you, I didn’t experience any of that. My parents loved and supported me unconditionally – often even when they didn’t understand me. So I had no such worries that plagued my burgeoning gayboy existence. I was unfettered to explore what being a young gay man meant to me (thankfully beyond the hell that was high school).
But it just as easily could have been my life. Thrown to the wind with no degree of support or knowing I had any place to call home other than the small square foot of space I happened to occupy at any given time.
In the first verse and chorus of Home my takeaway was that this was exactly what could’ve been for me. Jay’s vocals completely support this. There is an understated power lingering as an undercurrent of how Jay slowly reveals the harsh reality he paints. Boys trying to find their own way – finding happiness and pleasures when and where they could to make life at least bearable.
Same old story, different song
Most people get the lyrics wrong
Verse by verse we rode a raging bull
Stomach empty, balls fullLate nights in Hollywood banging guitars and boys
Swingsets and cigarettes were our joys[CHORUS]
We were young and excited
We were lost and alone
We were free, but misguided
And we had no place to call home
I do love the imagery he calls up here in the song – as bittersweet as it is. The manner with which these misguided boys strive to exist and support one another, the freedom they strive to claim for themselves but still harnessed to the harsh reality of what this sort of existence brings is both heart rending as it is poignant.
Then the bridge comes – confirming the pathos that has only up to now bubbling under the surface. Jay’s carefully chosen prose is both impactful as it is cutting. It is the last line that when it comes, and I’ve sung this song in the car with him many times, never fails to bring a tear to my eyes, most go unshed but only because I blinked them all back. But the pain – both implied and imagined with those words – the raw and vulnerable emotions behind them – say everything to me about displaced youth and the inhumanity of it all. I’ve bolded it for easy reference.
Why don’t the Gidoens leave condoms in the drawer?
Bibles don’t save many people anymore
We took up quarters in the bathroom, there were dollars on the floor
I looked at you, you said to me, “Jay, we’re worth more”We were young and excited
We were lost and alone
We were free, but misguided
And we’d found a place to call home
The Always, Then & Now Tour…
Please check out his site with links for his upcoming shows. I am definitely a late comer to the Brannan bandwagon whenever he pulls through my city. But now that I am going this year, I am making it a goal never to miss when he swings through town. I hope you take advantage of the opportunity as well. Also be sure to check out his web store at the following link.
- Jay’s Website – jaybrannan.com
He does it… Beautifully…
31 Days of Brannan – Day 7
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Today’s Playlist – Beautifully (and the Behind the scenes)
I love the idea of pairing these two videos. Here is where Jay is pure bard. He spins one tale from the text of the song itself but with a clever and well chosen production crew they come up with a spin on it that is really a lovely twist on presenting the same tale but with a subtext that is just as riveting as the prose of the song.
The video is cast perfectly, with the strong chinned hero of the story – calling up the Hollywood leading men of the golden age of movie making. Indeed, the entire art direction was spot on with how they blended the classic films of that era and the behind the scenes of producing those types of classic movies.
The woman cast as the starlet who has fallen in love with her co-star (though he feigns either indifference or her status in “his” Hollywood isn’t up to snuff. He’s nice about it but his cold shoulder between ‘takes’ sets a very clear line in the sand between them). I also love the inference that she takes no notice of Jay’s character who seems to look longingly at her but as a theatre usher or bellboy (I couldn’t really tell which) he is beneath her noticing his interest – in other words, the cycle continues unabated.
This video works on many levels and I particularly liked the behind the scenes that he posted. Having a daughter who was a cinema major only increased my desire to look behind the creation of various cinema projects. I always look for behind the scene sequences on any DVD or digital download from iTunes. They’re sort of my guilty pleasure. I am just addicted to the creative process. Sort of a junkie for that sort of thing. Even though I spent many a hour under the spotlight of the stage, I was actually more at home hanging out with the production crew. I worked for a theatrical distributor (of theatre lighting and sound equipment and such) so the tech/production crew were my peeps. I understood them. I get what they’re about. Sure performing is cool and all – and I’ve been lucky enough to play to some very large houses but the tech crew were always home to me.
So thanks Jay for posting this. The people who are often only names during the credit roll. I think it’s totally cool that you gave them a moment on your channel.
I got to have my guilty pleasure of a BTS moment, and got to enjoy the fruits of your (and your crews) labors.
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The Always, Then & Now Tour…
Sidebar: I bought my Deluxe Package from Jay Brannan’s store for the tour he’s embarking on now. The cost of the deluxe package is $40 and you get quite a bit for it. There are other packages as well. But that isn’t why I did it. I did it because I truly feel indebted to this man of words and music. I am enriched by his musical musings and experiences. I am emboldened to discover that I am not alone in my dreams and fears. And for that I will always support him and do what I can to spread the word.
The deluxe tour package from Jay Brannan’s merchandise store – get this or many other offerings from his site.
Please check out his site with links for his upcoming shows. I am definitely a late comer to the Brannan bandwagon whenever he pulls through my city. But now that I am going this year, I am making it a goal never to miss when he swings through town. I hope you take advantage of the opportunity as well. Also be sure to check out his web store at the following link.
- Jay’s Website – jaybrannan.com
Under the Covers with Jay…
31 Days of Brannan – Day 7
(A bit later than I wanted – technical issues)
Today’s Playlist – Landslide and Super Bass
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Errata – So I had technical issues of a major sort with my web hosting site. I couldn’t get it to respond or wouldn’t even serve up additional pages or the WP admin site. I was beside myself. Luckily the support team responded rather quickly and acknowledged that the server was having issues. They corrected it but it was well past my bed time to post.
SO, this is the post I was going to put up yesterday. So we’ll get two for today to make up for the technical fubar.
Jay is rather well known by his fans for his careful selection of cover material. All artists do it from time to time – putting their spin on classic tunes we all know and love. When Jay does it they truly do gain a new life of sorts. Not that they take away from the classics, it’s not that at all. Jay’s respectful enough to leave the lingering sentimentality of the song to caress your ear and remind you of times long past. Things that you thought were buried but with his dulcet tones they come swimming back.
Such was the case for me when he covered Landslide. Like many of my generation (I was around when Fleetwood Mac and Stevie Nicks were exploding on the scene back in the 70’s), FM and Nicks were monumental in the soundtrack from my life back then. Nicks in particular reminds me of my friend Crystal. She was into wicca back in the day and hell, that rumor swirled around Nicks like the fringed shawl she would use on stage. She was a very magical act to behold. I listened to all of the classic bands back then – Heart, Queen, Boston, Journey, Styx, The Mac and Stevie. But Stevie was special in my mind. Probably because Crystal’s whole outlook on her music drove that for me.
We were in high school, dealing with all of the social cliques and unwritten but oft remembered laws that govern that microscopic enclave we called academia. For me, being gay and fairly obvious about it in the late seventies and early eighties was no easy thing to burden. Crystal was my get away. I was over her house quite a bit in those days. We did what most teens did… we played songs and we sang our hearts out – probably because we were both in choir (how gay can you get for a high school boy, right?).
Rhiannon, Go Your Own Way, Dreams, they were all on our playlists in our head in those days of vinyl. And kids, let me tell you NO digital file can compare with an analog recording – forget what the marketers and the tech geeks say – vinyl rules.
Anywho, so when Jay released this little cover on his youtube channel, I was over the moon to hear it. His rendering of the song is quite emotive for me – recalling those days so long ago and the naiveté that permeated my teen years. My senior year was another story altogether – but I’ll leave that for another time.
So Jay – yeah, thanks for taking me back, though I am fully cognizant that that wasn’t your goal, it was the unintended effect on my part. I got sentimental for those days. Recalling that boy so long ago and the heady, romantic ideals I had about what being with a boy would be like.
But a lot of your songs do that for me. They take me back. Just as emotive as those sentimental favorites. Probably why Rob Me Blind (along with your entire catalog) is constantly playing in the car. They are my new classics, my new sentimental favorites.
And I sing them with no less sentimentality than Landslide or Dreams. Denmark and Rob Me Blind have just as prominent a place as those songs did from my past. Rob Me is my new soundtrack for this stage of my life. And I couldn’t be happier…
And now for something completely different… SUPER BASS
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Just my giggle moment from Jay. I love that he can go there and take us along for the ride.
The Always, Then & Now Tour…
Sidebar: I bought my Deluxe Package from Jay Brannan’s store for the tour he’s embarking on now. The cost of the deluxe package is $40 and you get quite a bit for it. There are other packages as well. But that isn’t why I did it. I did it because I truly feel indebted to this man of words and music. I am enriched by his musical musings and experiences. I am emboldened to discover that I am not alone in my dreams and fears. And for that I will always support him and do what I can to spread the word.
The deluxe tour package from Jay Brannan’s merchandise store – get this or many other offerings from his site.
Please check out his site with links for his upcoming shows. I am definitely a late comer to the Brannan bandwagon whenever he pulls through my city. But now that I am going this year, I am making it a goal never to miss when he swings through town. I hope you take advantage of the opportunity as well. Also be sure to check out his web store at the following link.
- Jay’s Website – jaybrannan.com
And now for sometihng completely different…
31 Days of Brannan – Day 6
Today’s playlist – JAY’S BEST MOVES!
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Okay first off – I FUCKING LOVE THIS VIDEO! When I am low, need an emotive shot in the arm, a boost of energy, a smile on my face, a happy moment in a dark world I play this little ditty of a video. And I am truly happier after I’ve watched it.
I was a fan when I first really started to listen to his work. I was enamored with his prose. He is hands down a brilliant writer. He is a major influence in how I write what I write. The way he juxtaposes imagery and words – weaving textures that are truly thought provoking yet completely hummable and singable is truly an amazing gift.
Now pair that with a voice that is crystal clear, and supported but an incredible amount of breath control (as a classically trained singer I am really impressed by the degree of control he has over his breathing). Jay is clearly a natural singer. It comes to him like breathing. Whereas we other poor slobs have to work at our craft to achieve the same level of control and mastery of our talents.
So why this video today?
Actually, I wanted to save it for the 31st – I may even replay it then anyway – but I’ve been pondering some of Jay’s recent posts in the Twitterverse. What I want to know is –
How fucking blind are the gay guys in NYC that someone hasn’t wooed this man into romantic oblivion yet?
I mean, am I missing something here? Just look at the video, or any of his videos for gods sake and you can tell he’s the whole package deal. Brilliant mind, looks that the camera just loves, and sexy as hell moves on the dance floor – what’s not to love?
Maybe he likes his solitude.
I spoke at length about this with a guy who I consider to be so close to me he’s like a brother to me. I turned him onto Jay’s music and he and I agree whole-heartedly, in fact, it was my friend who came up with the analogy – he said he’s kind of like the gay Mozart. Incredibly talented, almost genius in the quality of his work. That sort of quality can be hard to cope with. Maybe Jay does require a lot of down time to regroup and work through his next project as it takes form in his head. Pure speculation on our part and not idle words either. We talked at length about the lyrics of his songs. The choices he made in the production of them, why he chose what he chose to produce them. There was solid craftsmanship in them.
Eh, it’s all speculation on my part. What I do know is, with the public persona he’s projected on the internet and in social media, he’s got quite a thing going on. And it’s rather impressive in that his fans seem very devoted to his work and are extremely supportive.
I don’t believe for one minute that I am the only one who blogs about the quality of his work – not for a minute. I am sure that there are others out there doing their level best to get the word out about his tour and the inbound release of his newest project.
Anyway, I wasn’t trying to over think this. I wanted to let everyone enjoy Jay shaking his groove thang… and he shakes it so well.
I think I’m gonna watch it over again – I’m in need of a good smile.
The Always, Then & Now Tour…
Sidebar: I bought my Deluxe Package from Jay Brannan’s store for the tour he’s embarking on now. The cost of the deluxe package is $40 and you get quite a bit for it. There are other packages as well. But that isn’t why I did it. I did it because I truly feel indebted to this man of words and music. I am enriched by his musical musings and experiences. I am emboldened to discover that I am not alone in my dreams and fears. And for that I will always support him and do what I can to spread the word.
The deluxe tour package from Jay Brannan’s merchandise store – get this or many other offerings from his site.
Please check out his site with links for his upcoming shows. I am definitely a late comer to the Brannan bandwagon whenever he pulls through my city. But now that I am going this year, I am making it a goal never to miss when he swings through town. I hope you take advantage of the opportunity as well. Also be sure to check out his web store at the following link.
- Jay’s Website – jaybrannan.com
Everywhere There’s Statues…
31 Days of Brannan – Day 4
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Today’s Playlist – Everywhere There’s Statues
Happy Fourth of July to all the US peeps out there!
There are three songs I am looking forward to (well hoping, actually) that Jay performs on this tour.
They are:
- Rob Me Blind (for sentimental reasons – see first day’s post)
- Denmark (for pretty much the same reasons as number one)
- Everywhere There’s Statues (today’s selection)
As we Yanks in the US celebrate the country’s founding, I was drawn to this song in particular. Jay muses with many things in this song, playing with common threads that no matter where you are in the world brings the question of what constitutes freedom front and center.
I love the imagery in this song. It is so poetic and riveting in both scope and appeal. It’s a mental floss moment in songwriting:
It’s like looking for hay in a stack of hypodermics
Shooting up grey through the cracks in the yellow brick road
And everywhere there’s statues with their arms open wide
Surrounded by fences that you, that you can’t get inside
That’s brilliant bloody writing, that is. Simplistic in nature yet evoking sentimental imagery that we can all commonly share. Four lines that have a great impact — questioning how we truly view the world and how we sadly often trade security for liberty in this day of casual terrorism. I can’t help thinking as we watch FIFA going on and the image of Cristo Redentor at the top of Mount Corcovado in Rio De Janeiro. Arms open wide (just as Jay calls to question) but there are so many oppressed peoples of the favelas there that will never find a path to a better life.
Heady words and a heady prospect. I often liken it to trying to explain the lofty goals as humans we set for ourselves only to fall well short of the mark. If we had to explain that to beings not from our world, an alien race per se, what would they see in our bold and charismatically infused words? Would they see the strive for that universal acceptance and utopian ideal? Or would they see us for the charlatans that many of us are? All words with very little bite to them?
The verse in the song that I love to sing along with kind of sums it up for me –
Sub-normal people do supernatural things
In a world full of demons with white feathered wings
I feel like I’m open hearted, but it’s a broken range we’re on
I know I’m not the only one asking where have all the cowboys gone
Can’t one of these cowboys come rescue me?
I need a little bit of rope n ride to keep me on my feet(to chorus)
I even allude to these lines of Jay’s in my first novel (coming soon) in that my world deals with the concept of Angels – the potential angelic ideal in all of us, and how sadly we often can’t bring ourselves to care enough to do something. Oh, we can acknowledge the horror, the inhumanity of it all, but how many of us are called to action to do something?
But it is Jay’s bridge in the song that carries the greatest emotional and reasoned impact in the song – for me, it elevates it and gives it its true power.
Face down on the hardwood floor
In one more empty corridor
I’m all alone in these halls
All is fair in love and war
If I can’t find an open door
Then I’ll start taking out walls
I’m face down on the hardwood floor
And not a soul with which to be
If this craving’s one to ignore
Then someone tell me what the fuck a soul is for
You go, Jay. I fucking love it when he kicks me in the emotive and mental parts all at the same time. This song is brilliant and works on so many levels. None the least of which is the orchestrated version on Rob Me Blind. I love the string arrangement in it. Very elegant touch in the final chorus – heightening the production value immensely from this little musical segue. Lovely arrangements, simply moving.
While Jay doesn’t travel with a band, because it would probably be a logistical nightmare for him as he does 99% of his work all by himself, I know I will have to supply the stirring string arrangement myself if he performs this one live. It’s how I’ll hear it in my head. This is bang on one of my absolute favorites songs of his.
I am a fan of his because his music makes me question, leads me to ponder, gives me a good mental flossing and prods me along to reevaluate how I see things. It’s like putting on glasses where things were simply so out of focus but you just plodded along anyway until you put them on and suddenly you realize the details in life you may have been missing all along.
Brilliant, brilliant work!
The Always, Then & Now Tour…
Sidebar: I bought my Deluxe Package from Jay Brannan’s store for the tour he’s embarking on now. The cost of the deluxe package is $40 and you get quite a bit for it. There are other packages as well. But that isn’t why I did it. I did it because I truly feel indebted to this man of words and music. I am enriched by his musical musings and experiences. I am emboldened to discover that I am not alone in my dreams and fears. And for that I will always support him and do what I can to spread the word.
The deluxe tour package from Jay Brannan’s merchandise store – get this or many other offerings from his site.
Please check out his site with links for his upcoming shows. I am definitely a late comer to the Brannan bandwagon whenever he pulls through my city. But now that I am going this year, I am making it a goal never to miss when he swings through town. I hope you take advantage of the opportunity as well. Also be sure to check out his web store at the following link.
Jay’s Website – jaybrannan.com