{"id":24,"date":"2014-04-25T16:59:44","date_gmt":"2014-04-25T16:59:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/biz141.inmotionhosting.com\/~akweko6\/sacollins.com\/wp\/?p=24"},"modified":"2014-04-25T19:12:52","modified_gmt":"2014-04-25T19:12:52","slug":"feeling-a-bit-vulnerable-with-my-shit-out-there","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.sacollins.com\/blog-wp\/?p=24","title":{"rendered":"Feeling a bit vulnerable with my shit out there…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Author’s Note<\/strong>: \u00a0This is a converted blog post. It originally was published on 04.17.14 @ 7:53pm, US Pacific.<\/p>\n

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So here\u2019s my deal with the whole writing thing that is so fucking out there scary. I mean – it\u2019s my shit, and well… it\u2019s out there, on the internet. While it was mine, on my computer, I was okay with its being in existence. Not that I am ashamed of the work or anything like that. I mean, all writers have to start somewhere. I get that it\u2019s all part of the equation. And it\u2019s not like I am not into public displays of my work, either. After all, I am a classically trained singer so I\u2019ve trod a multitude of stages with audiences both large and small. So no, it\u2019s not the public thing. Not really.<\/p>\n

Okay, maybe it is.<\/p>\n

Talk about the total flip-flopping – yeah, that\u2019s me on the topic of publishing. Part of me won\u2019t ever want to read ANY review – even if, as one published author told me, they\u2019re \u201cpushing so much sunshine up your backside that you get a sunburn from the experience.\u201d<\/p>\n

Plus, now that I have one complete novel \u201cin the can\u201d – so to speak, I can see how my writing has grown just from the experience of completing that first novel. I look back at the works I\u2019ve been hammering out before and think – holy fuck, I gotta fix this!\u00a0<\/i><\/p>\n

Then again, maybe it isn\u2019t fixing<\/i> that needs to happen. Maybe, just maybe<\/i>, I just need to breathe.<\/p>\n

There\u2019s no reason to panic.<\/p>\n

There\u2019s no reason to freak.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s digital bytes and bits, bro. All editable. In this e-age, nothing can\u2019t be written that you can\u2019t elevate to v2.0 – it\u2019s all in the marketing, right?<\/p>\n

Yeah, MARKETING…<\/p>\n

Now there\u2019s something to grapple with. Even with all of the information that\u2019s out there (almost too much of it, actually) that you really don\u2019t know what\u2019ll work for a budding novelist who is thinking of publishing all on his lonesome. I mean, in that way I control the distribution and keep ALL of the rights. But then again, I gotta figure out how to get it all out there.<\/p>\n

BY MYSELF!<\/p>\n

Okay, the hubby helps a lot too. So, that\u2019s definitely in the big plus column. And I\u2019ve got very honest friends who\u2019ll tell me – yeah, that\u2019s shit, fix it.<\/p>\n

So I\u2019m good there. I guess…<\/p>\n

See? While I write about Angels, it\u2019s this new Demon that\u2019s come crawling out of my inner woodwork: Doubt<\/i><\/b><\/span>.<\/p>\n

But the battle rages on…<\/p>\n

Hey, I wrote this, didn\u2019t I?<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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